I like to think...

I like to think I'm a grown woman..
with grown up ideas..and grown up persuasions...
truth is-
I'm not.
I'm still stuck in a 15 year old idealogy that says in order to be happy you have
to have a man.
Yes? No? What's the answer?
The answer is this...
you have to find your heart every day on your doorstep.
You have to learn to love the empty sad times
as well as relish in the alone times.
You absolutely HAVE to make friends with quiet.

You must learn to want the mistakes. Want the baggage.
And want to embrace the learning curve.
The curve that comes with newness and discomfort..
and also magic.
You have to want to put your fear aside and open yourself up..
again.

It's a new year.....
a "banner year" yes?

I'm ready to cast off old lines...raise new sails and set off into the sunset...
I have to know there is a story for me out there, right?
A "once upon a time" just waiting to be written...

a fairy tale for the masses...

I'm gonna write it.

Watch me.